Torn apart and ripped at the seam Damaged, broken, begging to be free Purchased, distorted Contorted till I bleed You placed the blame Then ‘let me be’ Disowned and told to make my leave I beg and plead to … Continue reading The Time Will Come
Oh my. The farther along today goes, the more I find myself refocusing on the here and now. My son is having fun writing out for me an assignment I gave him to do while he watches movies – … Continue reading Shame is optional.
This is something I wrote initially as a vent about 2.5 years ago. In an odd way I feel this writing to be the cornerstone of Forsaken Phoenix. Dissociative Identity Disorder is a very stigmatized, and in all honesty, feared … Continue reading Our Hope
“Do not let your fire go out. Do not let the hero in your soul perish in lonely frustration for the life you deserved and have never been able to reach. The world you desire can be won. It exists.. … Continue reading Something to remember..
We’ve all heard the all too popular quandary “is the cup half empty or half full?” My answer used to be “what the fuck does that have to do with anything??” Lol until I saw a meme that I fell … Continue reading Can I refill the mother f*cker?
there are things nobody will tell because we can not there are things nobody can know and there’s a lot we have secrets and owwies and nobody believes us you are not allowed to because we say so … Continue reading no more nothings
Shame Degradation Terror Helplessness Hopelessness Cool dark and damp Muddy walls and not a lamp White sheet curtain Stark bright flash Orders given Audience aghast Lines of children Neat in row Criss cross applesauce Wait your turn Do … Continue reading Never Tell
During summer I always feel this intense pressure to do all these things with my son – because I don’t work and because I’m home with him every day all day – I feel like it’s my responsibility to make … Continue reading Holy fuckballs Batman!!
Things are changing inside Spinnies have eased up and T reminded us on Thursday after DBT that we can trust him – he’s safe – there’s no ulterior motives or threat of intentional harm there Things are a lot derailed … Continue reading Not ok
Noooooooooooooo telling on the mountain over the hills and far away nooooooooooo telling on the mountain you better not I’m gunna get you I’m gunna get you you’re gunna wish that I’m not gunna get you Alias Continue reading No telling
We all know that there’s ‘no such thing as normal’ – that seems to be a universal phrase But I’ve noticed there seems to be a condition to that Almost as if ‘There’s no such thing as normal…. so long … Continue reading Fear
“The greater the power, the more dangerous the abuse.” Edmund Burke Knowledge is power. “When truth is buried, it grows. It chokes. It gathers such an explosive force that on the day it bursts out, it blows up everything with … Continue reading Shovers No Shovey
I know things I should *not* know and coming to terms with that is proving to be mind boggling. I struggle to relate to many in my DBT class and I’ve noticed it’s due to those things I know that … Continue reading You don’t Understand.